Someone help me please?

I am being evicted over paying my rent late by 1 week, even though I paid the late fee. I have 2 toddlers that are out of control. Both fathers are out of the picture and never call to see either one. Ever. I have NO family or help. My mother is mentally ill and gets paid from the state for it. My father is a drug addict who is physically abusive to me. I don't any close friends in the city I moved to. I have 2 friends I can call up, both of whom I do trust, but haven't told them my troubles because I don't want to depress them, and really there is nothing they could do anyway. I have hardly any income at all. Kids dads were ordered to pay support, but neither of them do. I am in the middle of court hearings for them. Oh and the other one they can't find currently, he moved out of state. I also have physical problems. I am tired constantly. And not like a normal tired. Like a severe fatigue. I have no diseases, but my white blood count is up, which means it could be cancer. I don't have good insurance and they have changed my doctor now so I can't see her until 45 days from now when the transfer goes through. I have to pack and move by myself. No help. My body is so beat. I layed in bed barely able to move because of a stabbing pain in my lower left side, and only got up to feed my children the entire day, because it was so painful. Again, I have to wait 45 days to even see someone to find out whats wrong. I have been to the ER but they dismiss me and try to give me pain pills and tell me to see my family doctor. My last spouse left me abrubtly, one minute he said he loves me and wants to marry me, and the ver next day he said to leave him alone and he was seeing another woman. Which, yea he had to have been seeing her long before. I used to be very beautiful, but having my children caused me to have stretch marks and gain alot of weight that no matter what I do, I can't seem to lose. Also, my ex abused me making remarks about my body all the time, to the point I stopped eating during the day. I eat about 1x a night. I smoke, constantly. My nerves are on edge. I cried for about 3 months straight after I learned about my spouse cheating on me. It was crying from sun up to sun down. I would tell my kids that I had something in my eyes or I would go and hide in another room. My depression got to the point where I would never actually cook, just make tv dinners or mcdonalds for my kids. I could barely clean my house. Well, really it was a horrible mess. My kids would make a mess and I wouldn't have the strength to even clean it. Physically and emotionally I am totally at rock bottom. The abuse I have suffered throughout my whole life, including childhood. And now having no where to go. I tried getting help from the welfare office for childcare so I could get a job, but they keep losing my referral. I still am trying everyday, I call to see if it has gone through yet. I have no source of income, except what I have saved. And I have literally only 300$ left to my name. My heating bill last month alone was 360$. because the house I am renting is severly cold and has horrible insulation. I applied for housing assistance, but am on a wait list. I have no where to go. I can't ask my 2 close friends to move in because they have 4 kids and the other has a terminally ill spouse. I don't know why or how my landlord could kick me out over being late on rent! I have paid the late fee! And I have no other complaints on me! I'm so scared the only place to go is to my fathers, and like I said he is a drug addict with alot of druggies coming by to buy and sell drugs. And as for income I guess I could be a stripper, although I probably wouldn't make much money? And I don't really want to do that anyway. Where can I go? A hotel? I shake all the time now because of my nerves. I have no one to talk to. I have thought about just hooking my car up to a hose and parking it in the garage and offing myself. Only problem is my kids. They have no family aside from me. Their fathers are pieces of **** and don't even see them on their birthdays or holidays. I need help so bad. I pray all the time. I don't attend church, and with all that I am facing, I don't have the time to commit. I know people say that a chruch could help, but they only offer free clothes and food. Not housing. My house is a wreck. I need a shower but no heat and have to warm water on the stove. Takes forever but I have to do it. My mind is beat. My body hurts. And my heart has been broken from my spouses, my mother and father, and even mean spirited people. I can't take it anymore. Please help me. Even if someone would call me and just talk to me. I can give you my number. I feel so alone. I'm so embarassed about being in this position. I may have to live in my car? Who knows? When will good things ever happen for me? I want to give up. If it weren't for my kids, I would. Please someone help.