I am miserable, i am fed up with everything and feel i am loosing the only thing that is making me happy.?

Get the mineral 5htp from a local pharmacy you don't need a prescription, look at the instructions on the back and follow them. It is. A natual constrate from meat and it needs to be extracted to work, so eating meat won't work the same, this stuff will increase seratonein in your body ( happiness and pleasure hormone) without making you feel high . It helped me with my depression and it's good for you unlike ssris and anti depressions because those can be dangerous, you also need to seek help by seeing a doctor and ask them to recommend you to a phycoljyst or conciler I hope this helps and I hope things work out, when you start the 5htp you will feel a little bit sick in the tummy but it will pass if you are eating properly in a few days :)